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| what the fuck is wrong with people now and days?
cant they just all be happy?
i love him, why cant you all just see that?
No! all of you have to just get into our business.
i love him and i want to be with him for the rest of my life. all i want with him is a life together, its not like i'm the only one who feels this way. he wants to be with me too, i know he does.
why do we have to both fight against all of you just to be together?
you guys act like i'm a horrible person, and i'm only using him for other reason. i never fucked him over, never cheated on him, never broke his heart.
do i have to do those things for every one to accept me?
do i have to fuck him over for some other guy too so you guys can accept me?
i dont understand how you guys can accept a person who fucked him over, broke his heart, all for another guy.
especially since the guy who got fucked over is your own fucken brother!
finally a good woman comes into his life, falls head over heels in love with him and wants to spend her life with him. he's happy with her, and she's happy with him. but you guys cant see that he's happy.
instead, you try to ruin his happiness. you blame me for things that happen in YOUR FAMILY because you have no one else to blame. so, why not blame the girlfriend who is already hated by the mother? seems like a simple easy plan, right!
i love him, and there is nothing you guys can do to change that. go ahead an blame me for whatever you want, hate me, disrespect me, talk shit about me, and humiliate, i can tell you now that nothing will make me leave him.
i want to be with him for the rest of my life. i'm not going to leave him for another guy like your fucken bitch ass "friend". i wont break his heart like she did.
i dont care any more if you guys hate me and cant accept me. its not important. whats more important is that HE accepts me into his life. if you cant accept that i love him and make him happy then your the people who have fucken issues to work on.
dont try to fucken ruin our relationship cause yours isn't working out. its not my fault that your not happy with who ever.
i expect this from F.O.B folks, not young folks like you.
accept that your brother is happy and move the fuck on!
accept that he wants to marry me, and he will.
do what you want, say what ever. i dont care.
i'm not going to be as low as you.
even if you cant accept me, i'm still going to treat you the way i should. being married to him makes me family even if you dont like it. which means i'm going to treat you like family. i'll help you if you need it, i wont hate you, talk shit, or disrespect you, that would be wrong.
i cant stoop down to you people's level, it wouldn't be what he wants me to do.
i'm better then that.
I'M BETTER THEN THAT DIRTY BITCH THAT FUCKED HIM OVER!!!
accept me or not, i'm going to be in his life!
grown up and get the fuck over yourself!
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| have you ever looked at a picture of someone you haven't seen in year only to find youself with a pain in you heart?
have you ever looked at a picture of someone and wonder if they still look at you pictures and think of you too? I do..
once in a long time i would look for a picture of him, and cant help but wonder if he still thinks of me.
does he still wonder about me?
does he still have pictures of me?
do i ever cross his mind even though it been 6yrs? Some one once told me that when you dream of someone it means they went to bed thinking of you.
This may not be true but i think it is.
I've dreamt alot about him, some dreams are about him, and some just have him in them.
does this mean he thought of me before he drifted off to sleep?
did he think about me while laying down for bed after his long day?
did he really think about me some nights?
i like to think he did. you see my heart still feels the same way it did when he broke it 6yrs ago.
if i had just one wish, i wish i would be able to stand face to face with him, and say all that i had to say to him.
Let him know that my heart was not just broken by him, it was ripped out and stompped all over.
Let him know that he hurt me so badly, that to this day my wounds are still fresh.
Let him know that i still love him after all these years.
Let him know that i still look at his pictures and feel that stab of pain within my heart.
Let him know that i still think of him. And ask if he still thinks of me... if i had one wish, i wish to just talk to him one last time.
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| have you ever looked at a picture of someone you haven't seen in year and feel a little pain?
have you ever looked at the picture and wondered how they were?
have you ever looked at a picture and old memories come flooding back?
have you ever looked at a picture and wondered if that person still looks at your picture too? i do. once in a long time i would look try to find a picture of him, just to look at it, only to find myself thinking about our good times. times of when we met, when we had our best moments, when we cried together, laugher together, and even when i met his parents. i thought what we had was real and that nothing would ever change that, i was wrong. what i thought was true love ended as puppy love. things felt so real so true, so pure, and in the end only left me torn and broken. to this day i'm still heart broken.
Why?
because i never got to say all i needed to before he walked out of my life forever. my heart remains broken, and every time i look at a picture there is a little pain that stabes my heart, just like it did 6yrs ago.every time i look at a picture, i cant help but wonder if he still has pictures of me, and if he ever looks at them and wonder about me.
does he ever look at my pictures and think about me, think about us? they say that if you dream about some one it meant that they went to bed thinking of you.
I'm not entirily sure this is true but its something i like to think if it is. I've many dreams about him, and some dreams just have him in them. does this mean he's been thinking about me when he lays down at the end of his day? does this mean he thinks of me before he drifts off?
to me it still hurts because i never got to tell him everything i wanted to. all that i held inside my heart. all my love, all my pain, i never got a chance to tell him. if i could have one wish, it would be just to stand face to face with him, and tell him everything i never told him. just for him to listen to me. i wish he could just let me say all i have to say, that way, i dont have to hold on to this pain anymore. maybe my heart would finally heal and my fresh wounds will turn into scares.
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| have you ever hated some one so much you'll do anything just to make them vanish for good? i do. i never hated some one so much i want her to just go away. i'm about ready to do anything just to get rid of her. he never wants to answer my calls or talk to me when he's around her. i know that she is his babymama but he dont have to avoid me when he's with her. it pisses me off so bad i just want to scream. the worst part is that he dont even seem care about what the fuck i think. that bitch! what a fucked bitch! that dirty ass piece of shit whore! i want her to just roll over and die. i never hated any one with so much passion. just thinking about her make my blood boil.
doesn't he see that what he's doing is pushing me away father and father? dont he see that he's hurtting me by what he dose? i'm pushing myself away from him, starting to act more and more like him. i dont call or text him till he does it to me first. but it doesn't seem to matter at all to him. he seems like he's couldnt care less. i hate how he acts towards me. but yet i still cant leave him. i still love him, i still want to marry him, i remain engaged to him. he's such a jerk. a fucken jerk. i'm so angry with him but he dont even seem to care.
how do you love some one who is always like that. how can you stay with some one when they always act the way they do? how can you begin a new life with them when all they do is break your heart? i'm angry at him but he dont seem to give a shit about how the fuck i feel.
i'm going to do the same to him so that he will see that i'm hurt.its my only opion.
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| I'm gettin msrried!
Getting married on june 6th. So happy. Was a single mother soon to be a mother to two step sons. Three kids, wow all boys. I'm happy. Living in minnesota with my soon to be husband Beeson Her, and starting school with a family!
I'm getting married! | | |
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